"The look of love is in your eyes
A look your smile can't disguise
The look of love is saying so much more than just words could ever say
And what my heart has heard, well it takes my breath away
I can hardly wait to hold you, feel my arms around you
How long I have waited
Waited just to love you, now that I have found you
You've got the
Look of love, it's on your face
A look that time can't erase
Be mine tonight, let this be just the start of so many nights like this
Let's take a lover's vow and then seal it with a kiss
Don't ever go
Don't ever go
I love you so"

Loving Diana Krall's (live in paris) version. lovely melody, amazing vocals, delightful little piano solo :)

i'll fight for a love as beautiful as you.

"As I later learned, music is as old as human beings. Our ancestors, who travelled from cave to cave, couldn't carry mnay things, but modern archaeology shows that, as well as the little they might have with them in the way of food, there was always a musical instrument in their baggage, usually a drum. Music isn't just something that comforts or dirstracts us, it goes beyond that- it's an ideology. You can judge people by the kind of music they listen to."
Coelho: The Witch of Portobello

Been re-reading lots of Coelho.
The kind of literature that makes sense to me and is so inspiring

back to reality for me (and you) soon.

i wish it's easier for me to forget you, or to hate you.
but its close to impossible for now.
be safe, icant wait to see you again when you're back.
a year after, i'm glad you're still mine.
and the promise that i'm yours to keep is still true.
so what if i cant conform to the either-single-or-in-a-relationship status?
let them judge, it wouldnt change anything anyway.

sometimes i wish people can see the bigger picture, really.
probably the reason why politics in general made so much sense to me, but politicians dont.
take a step back, look out for the forest and not just the tree.
its the same thing with music.
people only think that music is to relax, to regulate emotions(obviously i was paying attention in class) and all that blah blah.which is true
but
if people ever look at the bigger picture, and move away from all the commercialisation and glamourisation and hollywoodisation of music, they will realise that music at its core is so much more powerful and influential and well, very human(e).
people dont think and reflect and ponder and question enough. but then again, maybe i'm the weird one here.

given time, some things change, some don't. and some get better and better.
we belong to the last category.

"i came here all the way for you"
"from the other side of the world!"
"not even the world. its the other side of the universe"

you gave me every reason to feel alive again.

"Oh, I can't explain. When I like people immensely, I never tell their names to any one. It is like surrendering a part of them. I have grown to love secrecy. It seems to be one thing that can make modern life mysterious and marvellous to me. The commonest thing is delightful if one only hides it. When I leave town now I never tell my people where I am going. If I did, I would lose all my pleasure. It is a silly habit, I dare say, but somehow it seems to bring a great deal of romance into one's life. I suppose you think me awfully foolish about it?"
this really summarised the odd things do so neatly!

the most cliched cheesy line m and loverboy used
but they work like magic each time
i should seriously get a fail grade when it comes to love and romance

b i think you're wrong
you said that if it was the then-me, i would have taken a measuring tape to prove the theory.
but i would have said that i wont even bother, i'll take whatever he said as gospel truth.
growing up and being less naive is both a good and bad thing.
and i cant decide which side i'm on.
thankyou for driving over just to pass me two boxes of nerds! <3

if everything goes well, next week will be the best week ever.

you (still) never fail to make my heart skip a beat whenever i see you name on my phone. i really wish i could accept that invitation, but it will be way to crazy

" They are the prisoners of their personal history. Eeryone believes that the main aim in life is to follow a plan. They never ask if that plan is theirs or if its was created by another person. They accumulate experiences, memories, things, other people's ideas, and it is more than they can possibly cope with. And that is why they forget their dreams."
Coelho, The Zahir
This pretty much sums up why i'm still single (by choice)
when i love someone, i really lose myself. i'm drowned and drunk and blinded.

how did you spend last valentines'?
i can so remember last year, because it was the first time i broke the curfew. big time breaking the unspoken curfew.
it was the night when i learnt that we can speak, even in silence.
i spend the dawn with someone i truly cared, thinking about the crazy few months we had.
a year later today, i'm still amazed that we've come this far.

this year got to be the most un-happening valentines' ever :(

i honestly feel that i have every reason to be angsty, unappreciative and ungrateful.
it's barely midterm and i'm already having zero time for myself.i dont like this one bit.
to top it off, the amount of readings and research and presentation and catching-ups are utterly insane and neverending.
and i havent seen loverboy in a million years.
but
i also have a thousand reasons to be grateful.
i have the best kind of friends that i sometimes dont think i deserve.
i'm lucky to have a future teacher and a future lawyer as project mates. not only is it not awkward to work with them but they are also incredibly insightful and intelligent, its very satisfying to debate plato with them.
i have bestest that willingly(ahem) gave up hot date(s) to rescue me
i have van to talk politics with at ungodly hour on a saturday morning. and she told me some i-would-probably-never know-of story about tulip itallian financial crisis.or something along those lines.

maybe it's time i start counting my blessings.

p.s. yessssssssssssssssssss! after educating myself for 2hours about the egypt situation, i am sure i can smoke through my plato presentation with a pseudo-intelligent content. initially i thought i wont be able to do a full 10min speech but now i'm over the time limit. :) time for a break! :)

p.s
Leo: But i do think the rest of the gang is going to naturally assume that b's my guy since the way we talk and interact is probably too suspicious to be just friends. but that suits me just fine :)
Van: Huh. So seeing other girls is more impt that Leo? Yup! they will definitely think that way!
hehehe b i just have to type this and show you my convo with van.yay to the first line of her response!

b
thank you for rescuing me and sacrificing your date(s) (very few people will ever do that for me seriously!)
you know somehow i think you're quite unhappy yst, like something's going on but you're not telling
and i dont want to pry because i know you'll tell when you want to
but its kinda worrying :(
maybe i'm just imagining idk. i'm not exactly as good as you when it comes to guessing if there's something not right.
but you know you can always talk to me about anything.

and vannyyy!
you're the best girlfriend seriously
i talk politics to you and you talk finance to me. and our favourite place to hang out is a bookshop. super geeky but maybe someday we'll rule the world
have more faith and confidence in your piano, your piano skills and the effort you've invested in music. it will all be worthwhile i promise

♥,
Leo

"if you were an ice cream flavour
you would be my favourite one."

When all the world is spinning 'round
Like a red balloon way up in the clouds
And my feet will not stay on the ground
You anchor me back down

I am nearly world renowned
As a restless soul who always skips town
But I look for you to come around
And anchor me back down

There are those who think that I'm strange
They would box me up and tell me to change
But you hold me close and softly say
That you wouldn't have me any other way

When people pin me as a clown
You behave as though I'm wearing a crown
When I'm lost I feel so very found
When you anchor me back down

There are those who think that I'm strange
They would box me up and tell me to change
But you hold me close and softly say
That you wouldn't have me any other way

When all the world is spinning 'round
Like a red balloon way up in the clouds
And my feet will not stay on the ground
You anchor me back down
Mindy Gledhill- Anchor

Amour
Definition: a usually illicit love affair
About the word: In 2010, a poll of linguists rated amour – the French word for "love," simple and sweet – the most romantic word in the world. In English, the word gains drama and loses innocence.
Merriam-Webster Online

see its happening again
the world world seem to be able to tell, just everybody but me

at one end of the spectrum is knowledge, what fully is.
at the other end is ignorance, what absolutely is not.
in between it is opinion.
maybe it's pretty difficult to get full knowledge because that will be wisdom, something that comes with age, experiences and expertise.
but at least be somewhere in between knowledge and opinion, because if you're stuck at ignorance then that will be plain sad.
and yes, all these words are really ancient, but really, how much have human change?
the world is thoroughly a strange place to be in